to confess

j confessed to all of his sins,
because he felt and considered that he is a guilty man.
he deserves to be punished with the full rigor,
he deserves to be punished from everybody,
what he only wants is love,
not only to love,
but also to be loved.
j dreams from an illusion
that he can not move away any more,
just seats lonely in a cane armchair behind a window,
and pets his small cat.